No Greater Purpose

Following Jesus is hard. Being a mother is hard. Today was no exception. Truth bomb. I am struggling, sisters. I feel like I never have time for myself. Not even a few minutes of uninterruption. If it’s not my children it’s the cats or dog, or my poor husband who doesn’t understand my annoyance. Right now I am at a spot in life where I am really trying to repent of certain sins. Things that have been ingrained into my brain since childhood. Like cursing, yelling, being quick to anger. I have also been guilty of spending too much time scrolling on my phone. These are all things I recognize as issues. So today whilst having my diet coke and spending time with Jesus, (I think he’d be more of a dr pepper guy) I am reading the book of Romans. I came across Romans 5:3-5 “Glory in our sufferings because we know that they produce perseverance; perseverance, Character; and character hope.” I know most of us have been there and if you can honestly say you haven’t, you should qualify for saint status. But we have all had those moments of annoyance or jeeeeze. Can you please just go play, fall asleep, or whatever it is so they will quit inconveniencing you. We do it all the time. It is so normalized in motherhood too. I read that verse after writing down the things I listed above and ways to help myself break those habits. It hit me. How special is it that God entrusted me with leading three beautiful little souls to eternity. Talk about ministering. Think about it. What could be any more important than that. Not any blog post, spotless house that's bound to be made dirty again, coffee alone in peace and quiet could ever measure up to that. He is creating perseverance in me as a mother and wife. While it is so easy to be annoyed and make our children feel like a burden. We persevere when we stop and show them love and patience. We honor Jesus and become more Christ-like while doing so. Our children are the only things we can take into heaven with us. It is such an investment in eternity. You literally cannot beat that! The holy spirit is truly changing my heart. It isn’t as instantaneous as I had hoped. I think that might be part of the point. A key factor is God's grand design of things. Or just our stubborn nature as sinful humans. We must experience difficult situations over and over until we have the perseverance to continue to go through them. I hope this encourages another momma. Might she be in the exhausting newborn phase, toddler tantrums galore or even dealing with mouthy teenagers. Show up, show grace, show patience, and guide them to the path of everlasting life. After All there is no greater purpose than to lead others to the kingdom of God.